Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Wednesday's wonder

The middle of September already. How does that happen? The older I get the faster it goes. It's amazing, really. I used to think it was BS when I would hear really old people say stuff like that...and now I are one. *erk

I'm having some real problems with my attitude today [again]. Top that with a horrendous sinus headache, and it was not a pretty picture. But last night I got to hear some good music outside and see lots of friends, and so how bad could anything be, really?? Just that my ..."magic magnifying mind" can take anything and blow it out of proportion. I nearly had myself divorced and heartbroken today. sheesh...even now(especially after reading the Rabbi-a-roni's serenity advice) when I need to let it go as it was more than 15 minutes ago. I feel like an idiot. It's little stuff and it isn't all that important (except in the moment it's happening), and I have to take a long hard look at myself and get this fear into perspective.

I'm grateful to have tools today to help me thru life on life's terms. I'm blessed to have people in my life who aren't scattering like cockroaches when the lights come on in my life (like it got at the end of my drinking). I'm super grateful that a drink (or 20) isn't the only solution I have today. I'm grateful I don't have to run. Take the geographic cure. Divorce this man who really loves me. Kill him in his sleep. You know....any of the things I would normally do. lol



Thanks for visiting me today.
It is so often about perspective.
Several things I have learned are.. I definitely don't know what's best for me. So....I leave it in God's hands and put it back into His hands anytime I get my grubby little paws on it.
And.....I try NEVER to act on my first thoughts and impulses. They are usually not very reliable.
Thank God for this program.

AlkySeltzer said...

Annie, "You know....any of the things I would normally do. lol"

Girl, you sound "normal" to ME!