One, Two, Three....BREATHE !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woke up this morning with a much better outlook on life. Feeling better, slept until after 9:30 (which gave me a full 7 hours of sleep), and had breakfast of oatmeal. Woke up with a bit of an emotional hangover, but I was able to make amends for my erratic behavior and apologize to my [much] better half.
Sometimes a person just overloads and whacks out and that's all there is to it. I am normally a very patient (snork) and compromising and understanding person. Yesterday I was not. I went from 0 to BEAST in the course of about an hour.
Whew. I am glad that's over.
Sipping a cup of rooibos tea this evening and sitting here at the computer thinking about going to bed. It's not 11 yet, but I have to get up early tomorrow and make sure to not miss my tax appointment. I need to get the stitches taken out of Miss Bella too, in the next day or 2. She has healed beautifully from the spay and was only a bit wonky for a day or two. I need to get this desk cleaned up and pay bills and vacuum the mounds of dog hair accumulating on my floors. Certainly enough to do to keep me busy.
I finally made the cabbage rolls today before leaving for MissB's house. They turned out yummy and I had some for my supper, with green beans.
Tomorrow will be a vegetarian meal....not sure what, but am leaning into something Asian. May take a trip to The Green Earth Grocers and see if they have soba noodles. I found them on Amazon, but have to order quite a bit. Which is okay...anyway, yesterday evening I went to one of the big markets looking for stuff that I wanted and found daikon radish and satay sauce and tamari sauce and sesame oil and teriyaki sauce. I still need umeboshi sauce, and can order it too, but again...if I can find it locally, that is where I will buy it. I have a large head of napa cabbage to make cabbage salad with, along with the daikon and carrot. Soba noodles with a light sauce. And a cup of the leftover miso soup. Mmmmm...that sounds good. Not sure of the dressing to put on the cabbage salad, but I know it will have tamari sauce and sesame oil and ginger. With perhaps some sesame seeds too.
I am tired. I'll go to MissB's only 3 days before being off again for 2. Taking it easy. She asked me to come an extra day and I said no, thanks anyway. (Aren't you proud of me ??) I just don't want to overdo it and wind up in a relapse from this nasty little bug again. I've had my fill of this business....
Isn't it a funny thing, the way we slide into our later years and things change so much? I told someone today, (and this is the truth) that I never used to stay home, sick or not. I never missed work. Now I'm all pussed out and changing my operating system. lol I used to say "I can be just as sick at home and not get paid for it" I never rested if I was sick or tired, just kept charging on through, no matter what. Now, I listen to this old body more and when I am tired, I rest. When I am sick, I try to do the things that need to be done to recuperate. It feels more like honoring my spirit to me, to listen, to pay attention. I did a guided meditation once in a group, where we went over every inch of our bodies, saying thank you and I'm sorry. And by the time it was half done, 90% of the group was crying. I was bawling like a baby calf. It was incredibly healing and enlightening. I realized then that I have abused this temple, neglected it, disrespected it. I have never been grateful enough for all the years of service, all the incredible feats performed. Illuminating, to say the least.
These days I try to be more respectful and compassionate on a daily basis. I spend a bit of time in the morning, thanking and honoring this old bag of bones for a job well done. And telling it I love it. And telling me I love me too. And that I am worth taking care of, that I am precious and my body is precious. This old, wrinkled, worn out body is precious. And so it is.
Alright campers. Time for some shut eye. Gonna put a salon pas patch on my aching knee and take a half dose of cough syrup and hit the hay.
Sweetest of dreams to you all.....