Monday, February 6, 2012

Seeing things with new eyes today...

 One, Two, Three....BREATHE !!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Woke up this morning with a much better outlook on life. Feeling better, slept until after 9:30 (which gave me a full 7 hours of sleep), and had breakfast of oatmeal.  Woke up with a bit of an emotional hangover, but I was able to make amends for my erratic behavior and apologize to my [much] better half.

   Sometimes a person just overloads and whacks out and that's all there is to it. I am normally a very patient (snork) and compromising and understanding person.  Yesterday I was not. I went from  0 to BEAST in the course of about an hour.

Whew. I am glad that's over.


  Sipping a cup of rooibos tea this evening and sitting here at the computer thinking about going to bed. It's not 11 yet, but I have to get up early tomorrow and make sure to not miss my tax appointment.  I need to get the stitches taken out of Miss Bella too, in the next day or 2.  She has healed beautifully from the spay and was only a bit wonky for a day or two.  I need to get this desk cleaned up and pay bills and vacuum the mounds of dog hair accumulating on my floors. Certainly enough to do to keep me busy.


  I finally made the cabbage rolls today before leaving for MissB's house. They turned out yummy and I had some for my supper, with green beans. 

   Tomorrow will be a vegetarian meal....not sure what, but am leaning into something Asian. May take a trip to The Green Earth Grocers and see if they have soba noodles.  I found them on Amazon, but have to order quite a bit. Which is okay...anyway, yesterday evening I went to one of the big markets looking for stuff that I wanted and found daikon radish and satay sauce and tamari sauce and sesame  oil and  teriyaki sauce. I still need umeboshi sauce, and can order it too, but again...if I can find it locally, that is where I will buy it. I have a large head of napa cabbage to make cabbage salad with, along with the daikon and carrot. Soba noodles with a light sauce. And a cup of the leftover miso soup. Mmmmm...that sounds good. Not sure of the dressing to put on the cabbage salad, but I know it will have tamari sauce and sesame oil and ginger.  With perhaps some sesame seeds too.


   I am tired. I'll go to MissB's only 3 days before being off again for 2. Taking it easy. She asked me to come an extra day and I said no, thanks anyway. (Aren't you proud of me ??)  I just don't want to overdo it and wind up in a relapse from this nasty little bug again.  I've had my fill of this business....


   Isn't it a funny thing, the way we slide into our later years and things change so much? I told someone today, (and this is the truth) that I never used to stay home, sick or not. I never missed work. Now I'm all pussed out and changing my operating system. lol  I used to say "I can be just as sick at home and not get paid for it"  I never rested if I was sick or tired, just kept charging on through, no matter what.  Now, I listen to this old body more and when I am tired, I rest. When I am sick, I try to do the things that need to be done to recuperate.  It feels more like honoring my spirit to me, to listen, to pay attention.  I did a guided meditation once in a group, where we went over every inch of our bodies, saying thank you and I'm sorry. And by the time it was half done, 90% of the group was crying. I was bawling like a baby calf. It was incredibly healing and enlightening.  I realized then that I have abused this temple, neglected it, disrespected it.  I have never been grateful enough for all the years of service, all the incredible feats performed. Illuminating, to say the least. 

  These days I try to be more respectful and compassionate on a daily basis.  I spend a bit of time in the morning, thanking and honoring this old bag of bones for a job well done.  And telling it I love it. And telling me I love me too.  And that I am worth taking care of, that I am precious and my body is precious. This old, wrinkled,  worn  out body is precious. And so it is.


   Alright campers. Time for some shut eye.  Gonna put a salon pas patch on my aching knee and take a half dose of cough syrup and hit the hay.

    Sweetest of dreams to you all.....



Beth said...

I hope you got a good night's sleep and your knee is all better this morning.

I remember what it felt like to be your age and what I feel like now. Now I know what old and decrepit is. LOL

Have a good day Annie!

DJan said...

I would have been crying during that guided meditation, too. What a great reminder you just gave me to honor my temple and treat myself to health. You do sound a lot better, Annie, and I am always always happy to read about your days, in any event. Hope that knee is better.

Mariodacatsmom said...

What is that old saying - Wisdom comes with age! In case case, I must be full of it. he he Now we all need to follow your advice.

LindaM said...

Annie, friends want me to do guided meditation and now I know what to expect? Wow.

Do you know about Mitsuwa? They are in Schaumburg Ill and are a Japanese gocery store. They do mail order and yes, have Umeboshi Paste. The price for umeboshi in general has sky rocketed since the quake but if you can find the actual plums, they really are delectible. I think so anyway:)
Your dinner tonight sounds amazing. Very gad you woe up feeling more like yourself and wise too if you ask me:)
Hugs to you my dear.

Dirt Lover said...

Glad to hear that you are taking care of yourself. Sometimes it's hard for us to do, and when we are younger we just zip through life. Stop and appreciate all that your body has given you. Hope you had a good night's sleep.