Friday, August 28, 2009

Freaky Fridays

~~~Frankie Figgs~~~~Generally one of the least user- friendly cats we have. But recently he has been all over me, wanting pets and treats and hugs and kisses.

Just had the most wonderful IM with a friend from Down Under. I adore her. It was everything spiritual, practical and loving...what a perfect combination ! I am so blessed to have such people in my life.

It's almost 2 AM and my house is filled with the aroma of fresh baked bread. It's about ready to come out of the bread machine. I forgot to stop and pick up a loaf on my way home thought I'd throw a loaf in the old whiz bang bread maker. The unfortunate part is that once it's done (a matter of minutes now) I will be OBLIGED to eat a chunk of it hot, with butter. It's a honey oatmeal bread...and OMG, does it smell like heaven!! And I know it will probably do one of two things. Either I will eat that hot yeasty bread and it will give me a stomach ache....or I will sleep like a baby. LMAO!!! Either way--I don't care. I'm willing to risk it for that soul comforting feeling that you can only get from warm homemade bread.

OMG. It's delightful. It's a beautiful caramel brown, the crumb is perfect and the taste is outta this world. I'm eating the end piece....It has whole wheat flour and unbleached flour, and flax meal, oatmeal, honey and butter in it. And water and yeast. And salt. Is there really anything better on this planet??????????

I'm home from a birthday meeting, so I'm feeling pretty grateful tonight. Watched someone get 35 years. Wow. By my best guesstimate, there must have been over 300 years of sobriety in that room. It was flat out AWESOME. I feel very lucky to be living in a place where there is so much sobriety and so many meetings.

My gratitude list for today could easily be a gazillion items long. lol I love counting my blessings instead of my problems. I love knowing that no matter how I might be FEELING at any given moment throughout the day, the facts are these: I am especially blessed.

Lets put it like this:

  • I will have running water on Monday.
  • I have all my needs met today.
  • Today I know that joy is the blood and heartbeat of God.
  • I am a strong sober woman.
  • Those feelings of uselessness and self pity have disappeared.
  • I know how to keep my thoughts positive.
  • 63 degrees is good sleeping weather.
  • Tomorrow I get to have food,fellowship and fun (and a bbq!) in one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen.
  • Today, I got a new sponsor!
  • The trigger finger problem I had seems to be going away. By itself!
  • I know love.
  • All kinds of love.
  • Cat and dog and chicken and bird and man and woman love.
  • I can live in a state of grace today. No matter what.



Andrew said...

I have fond memories of coming home from school and mom pulling fresh baked bread from the oven and eating an end piece of fresh, warm bread with margarine and jam. Butter was reserved for Christmas and Easter. Too expensive for a large, poor family.

Friday night meeting, 35 years. I'm guessing Ford is at 35 years now.

Prayer Girl said...

Your blog gave me a feeling of total peace and serenity. Even Mr. Figgs seems to be in a new mode. Maybe he's 'feeling the love' too. :)

I could smell and 'almost' taste the bread. I wanted to reach out and pet kitty. I would have loved being in that room with so much sobriety in it. And - oh what I wouldn't give to have 63 degree sleeping weather. Heavenly.

Love you,

big Jenn said...

Yor post makes me smile!jeNN

Carol said...

A new sponsor and fresh bread all in the same day, you are a woman who knows how to live.