Tuesdays twitterings

Several days of stormy and not quite raining days. We need a drink badly...the gardens are looking stressed, and we've no way to water them just now. Today, however, is looking promising. I see spatters of drops even now, and should probably be considering unplugging the electrical stuff.
I am blessed--they are laying the water pipe along our road. The serenity out here is cut short by the equipment they have brought to dog trenches and unload pipe. But I can live with it for a bit. One Day At A Time I can stand the noise to have running water. It's my new meditation. lol

I forget how quiet it is out here...until it isn't....or until I go into town to visit a friend. I am awed by the way people who live in cities don't even hear all that racket. Immune to it, I suppose, as a result of being hammered at constantly. It offends my sensibilities. lol

I've been searching my bookshelves for a book that I KNOW I have..and cannot find. I only have 6 bookshelves, for crying out loud. You'd think I could find one little book. It's called the Ken of Atta.... I have to do an opener at the class tonight and the session is on community. That's what I recall a great deal of that book being about....(though I could be mistaken-I haven't read it in 15 years.) lol I have some nice jazz playing on the stereo and am going to do a bit of sweeping up before I bake a peach pie. I have about 7 softball sized peaches off my tree and need to use them. They're gorgeous. Sweet and juicy.

Yesterday and this morning, I have been listening to a relapsed(ing) drunk cry and sob and be totally hysterical. As much compassion as I can muster, I nonetheless told her that she needed to grow up and that nobody ever died of a broken heart. For godssakes--she's been in an on again off again relationship with this guy for maybe 4 months. Maybe less. And she can't "take the pain"...And last night she hung up on me. This morning she called all apologetic, said he still hasn't come home, and started the sobbing all over again. She has to work at her new job this afternoon. I hope she doesn't blow that--jobs are hard to come by in these parts. I asked her if she was drunk, and she said NO. But I don't know if I believe her. She has an alcoholic habit of lying alot. lol I gave her some very explicit instructions about getting on her knees and asking God for help, and she said something like The darkness of Satan is covering me...(all the while sobbing hysterically) and I said NO--the darkness of DRUNKENNESS is covering you. STOP DRINKING!!!!! OR--do whatever you want. If you want to throw away everything you were just telling me yesterday morning (before the fateful event of HIM being 20 minutes late coming home from work) that God has given you since you got sober, by all means, keep drinking. You are grown and ou can do whatever you want. All the while she's screaming IT HURTS SO BAD!!! Until I wish I had the car today, so I could go over and slap her. (And that, dear friends, is God doing for me what I cannot do for myself! lol) I just told her again to pray and ask God for help, and call me later this afternoon.

It's exhausting.

And I am grateful. Grateful for people who told me things like they didn't care what I was FEELING--they only cared what I was DOING. Grateful for the women who told me I wouldn't die because my marriage of 18 years was ending. Grateful for the people who said "God never closes one door without opening another." Blessed beyond measure for the people who showed me the way, no matter how stupid I acted. lol


Maybe I can help this one get back on track. Maybe I can't. But I will stay sober today.
And that's the miracle happening in my world today. That no matter what, I never have to drink again, if I don't want to. That there's nothing so big that my Creator and I can't manage it.



Namaste.

Sundays Summer Solstice

Just home from the summer solstice celebration out at the La Vista Ecological Institute. It was lovely, as usual. There were incredible desserts brought by everyone as part of a potluck..and one of the most gorgeous Trifles I have ever seen. Me??-I brought a watermelon. lol

We spent most of the morning, early afternoon working in the yard. Mowing (finally dry enough and cool enough)...well, sort of cool enough. The temps were about 89 with a heat index of ONLY 97.... It had to be done, as the grass was up to middle of my leg. I mowed the front and part of the side, and my wonderful husband mowed the back and the other half of the side. We make a great team. I pulled weeds from flowerbeds too and he worked on the picnic table he's building me. Then we cleaned up and set out to have dinner at the Dead Lobster *grin, where we dined on broiled fish and shrimpies and scallops. AND those wonderful cheese biscuits. man, I love those things!! Then it was off to gas up the car across the river, where gas prices are always at least 20 cents a gallon cheaper than they are over here. Then we went up to the Oblate for the solstice celebration. It was a grand time altogether.

It's nice and cool here in the house with the air on...so humid and muggy outside tonight. I have to get up early and take himself to work so I can keep the car in the morning. I'm winding down, thankfully, and should be fast asleep in just a few minutes.

My gratitude list for tonight is short and sweet:

* My husband, who loves me always, no matter what
* My friends who tolerate more than anyone should have to from me
* My Creator, who continually puts the most amazing people in my path
* My gardens, my home, my pets and my sober world
* My blogs, that give me joy and an eye to the outside world



Namaste.

Whimsical Wednesday

Oh....I am in the post party doldrums this evening!!

It was very hot today and tonight is cooling down some, thankfully. The air is on, of course, but it still hangs pretty heavy out there.

I haven't cleaned up the supper dishes yet, nor made hubby's lunch. Our water system is down [again] and I did take a nice long scrub-a-dub a bit ago, so I am feeling a bit better. It's a pain...but the construction on the water lines is set to begin this week. So, I can make it through one more time. Hubby tried to fix the darn thing to no avail tonight... but it was so hot I called him in and said "Let it go". We'll manage like we always do...

My friend left today about 12:30. I miss him terribly, but must [guiltily] admit, it's nice to have the house to myself again. It's amazing how much you get used to being alone and how much you miss it...even when you love the person sharing your space. lol xoxoxoxo((Paxaa)))
Hope your trip home was uneventful and restful and you're settled in and enjoying a late snack. Caylee and Lucy keep looking for you!!

Just off the phone with 2 sponslings in a row...one worried because she got so fed up with the "BS at this meeting" she had to leave. The other just chattering away. Amazing...

Having lunch with my SIL tomorrow at the lovely Klingel House Tea Room. Will be good to have some time with just her and me. I have a couple of other errands to run, then pick up hubby, drop him off at home and then go to my womens meeting. Picking up another sponsling and then spending an hour or so after the meeting with her to go through the second step.

Life in AA just keeps getting better and better...in spite of me. I am especially blessed:

*To have women who really want to get sober in my life
*To know sober people all over the world!
*To be able to experience the emotions I have today
*To have a stable marriage
*To have friends with stable marriages
*To have just had a grand weekend, full of love and laughter
*To be looking forward to a nice quiet weekend coming


I'd best be getting to the chores...it will soon be late!!


Namaste.