...but for now, I'm furiously digging through the horse sh*t, looking for the pony. lol
It's been a crazy week. And a wonderful week. And a scary week. And a beautiful week. A week of learning and a week of yearning. A week of fear and pain and blessings. And ripe tomatoes, finally.
I have a kitchen island full of tomatoes for salsa making. I was going to do that today, bought the cilantro and everything. The Irishman's truck had to go in the shop Wednesday. They called today to tell me that they would have the truck done sometime this afternoon, and would call me when it was ready to pick up. I was afraid to start the salsa and have to leave it out midway done, in case they called. So, I didn't start it, and of course they didn't call until about 4. I had to pick up a prescription for a new medicine, so we headed in to town to do these things. The Walmart Pharmacy was severely understaffed for a Friday, and we stood in line over 25 minutes. It was crazy. By the time we got the truck and got home it was time to make supper. And I am tired and so I didn't even start it, because I would have been up half the night.
The AC is out again too. Luckily, the temps have been very cool again for this time of year. But we had to make a decision between putting the truck in the shop and fixing the AC, so the AC will have to wait. It will be okay. The bedroom has a window unit, so even if it does get hot (not looking good so far ) , we can just pile up in there.
My cardiology appointment yesterday was interesting. My blood pressure was sky high again. I had checked it that morning and it was only 145/68. When they checked it at the office, it was up to 175/80 again. I don't feel good. He lectured me and calmly answered every question I had for him. He seemed very efficient and like he knew what he was talking about, except that he kept saying that WHAT i was eating had nothing to do with anything. And I'm sorry, but I beg to differ. At any rate, the bottom line ios that I am overweight (true) , my BP is dangerously high (true), and no matter what, we have to get it down. I need to lose weight (I knew that) and he put me on a beta blocker, which I am hesitant to take. He looked me in the eyes and said "High blood pressure will kill you." He said he is giving me 3 months to lose weight, bring the bp down and lower my cholesterol levels (which really aren't bad, but he still wants it lower). He said if that doesn't happen, he is putting me on statins. I said I will not take statins. He looked at me like I was crazy. He said if I was his mother or his sister, he would make me take them right now. lol I feel the same way about the beta blocker, but I was willing to try it, as long as he promised me he would take me off it as soon as my bp is down. He promised.
He said that I was high risk because of my weight and my family history. I know that. He said, I don't want you to die. It will reflect badly on me as your doctor." and then he smiled. lol
I am scared. The list of possible side effects from this stuff is a mile long. Everyone I know that has taken it has an opinion about it...about 60/40 negative. I haven't taken the first one yet, and I think I will wait until tomorrow night, since we are supposed to go meet up with family tomorrow, and I don't want to be all yucky. He said it will make me tired at first. Hell, I'm already tired. lol On the other hand, I don't feel good tonight. I'm going back and forth about taking it or waiting. If I do feel really bad, I won't be able to go meet up with my family tomorrow OR can all that salsa. lol
My husband is very worried. And we had a long conversation about it all, and he says to me, I will take care of you. Just like you just took care of me. It's what we do, right ? Yes it is...it's what we do.