I'm working really hard to find my happy place today...
I furiously banged out about a page of venom tonight, and stopped and erased it all. The cathartic "puking" of it out of me helped...some. I am in one of those places that I find myself more often than I like these days--being pummeled about by the rantings and idiocies of my fellow members of the human race. I am subjected to television when I sit with MissB...between the political bs of campaign time and the misleading and ludicrous crap coming out of the mouths of some of these right wing fanatics that call themselves journalists, it's almost more than I can take. Now on Facebook, I see a person calling Gen. Petraeus a nutcase for saying that the actions of a church in Florida who intends to BURN COPIES OF THE MUSLIM HOLY BOOK could cause serious problems for the American troops in the middle east.
Now...there are at least 2 things wrong with this picture. One is that he and General Caldwell are both right about the ramifications. So what the hell is she talking about? The second is...who the hell does something like this ??? In the name of a church, for godsakes??? I am sickened by the behavior of these people. Is nothing sacred, if it isn't your own twisted religious views? I am so tired of being beaten to death with the religious right's personal version of right and wrong and good and evil. Do these people not read? Are they so small minded that they actually believe the BS they ooze?
And the bigger question of course, is this:
Why am I letting this all affect me so strongly???????????
I wasn't born yesterday. I have lived on this planet long enough to know that there will always be people who talk through their you-know-whats. I don't ever expect anybody to particularly see things my way or agree with me about my beliefs. I expect to see a few crazies out there...but for crying out loud ! It seems like lately half the world has lost their collective minds.
Okay. I'm through with my rant, [I think].
Sigh....I'm afraid. I'm afraid that we are approaching a point of no return in this country. I saw a bumper sticker the other day that said, "I'll keep my MONEY, and my GUNS. You can keep THE CHANGE." These lunatics are scaring the bejeezus out of me.
Okay. Now, I'm really done. [I think].
I don't need to be tripping on this stuff. Thinking of an old John Prine song from back in the 70's that talked about blowing up your tv and burning your newspaper and moving out to the country and growing a garden and eating peaches and finding Jesus on your own ...or something.
I need to go to bed....tomorrow is bound to look better.....
6 comments:
I hope you are sleeping well.
Love to you.
I hope you had sweet dreams. Unfortunately, there really ARE nutcases (on all sides) who do atrocious things in the name of religion. This has been going on for countless years. The bad thing is that, now, in this digital age, they can broadcast it to the world. Every village idiot can have his say on the worldwide stage. Sad.
Judy
I have been afraid for awhile now. I just don't know what is going on in the world either. Sometime I think I must be out of step, to feel that civility and respect is the proper attitude. It's so rare these days.
I hope you are feeling better today. The world must be heating up for an explosion, that's the way it feels to me.
My first sponsor broke the following quote down for me after I spewed something quite like this, I was so different from THEM, I knew THEY were wrong. I was NEVER going to be likened to THEM... those religious rights who are a bunch of self-righteous hypocrites.
"Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate."
He said, sounds an awful lot like
"We know that the law is spiritual; but I am un-spiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.
Funny how a dude who was one of the most avid followers of Christ got to the point where he abhored his human nature so that he said that.
then my sponsor said, Jessie, one more appearantly wouldn't hurt them, but I bet you could find a way to bring these principles into your life and try to join them in continuing to practice trying not to be a hypocrite, cheat or liar anymore. Instead of fighting that which you are, submit to God to become more a reflection of him.
I'm driven by my disease, to become a reflection of that which I most abhor. Intolerance, anger, hate and venom that is spewed in the name of my right.
I wish that wasn't true. I'm a poor reflection of He whom I hold so dear now, of the Christ who died for that sin which I can't seem to stop growing in me. The disease of alcoholics and others who seem to be driven so hard by fear and intolerance of others rights to freely choose their practices and paths.
God help me, help me to be more like the Christ whom I worship and adore for his reflection of love and acceptance.
....what?
And indeed, your next day post, makes it all good, that's what it's all about. Of course it seems when you are happy about your own life and grateful to the core, that does not change others, but i believe it does.
I believe that is the thing that will make change! when we start living by our passions, like you do! something like that.
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