I guess my expectations are just too high sometimes. It's 2 weeks and still no money from insurance for a new car. Lots of paper though. Tons of paper and stupid things to fill out. The latest is the medical claim stuff. Why can't they, in this age of instant access to EVERYTHING medical, just get records from the hospital (and police) about what happened? Instead, they call for phone interviews, send diagrams to label, send questionnaires to be filled out. Drives me to the apex of insanity having to re-live this accident over and over again.
Yesterday, we went back to the ortho guy for the Irishman. No miracles here. He has to wear the cervical collar/brace for another 4 weeks. No work, no driving, no nothing. No bending, twisting, lifting. He's losing his mind (I don't have much of one left to lose, lol). That was depressing enough. Then yesterdays mail (more papers, of course) also had 2 bills from the trauma hospital. One for me, with a price tag of 21,000 dollars and one for him, with a price tag of 23,000 dollars. I almost fainted. That does not include the local hospital where they took us first, or the double ambulance rides. 2 ambulances to the local hospital and 2 ambulances to the trauma hospitals. By the time all is said and done, this little escapade is going to cost us more than our house cost. To say that I am scared and worried is an understatement.
The Irishman has one more week of vacation pay left and a few hours of sick pay. Then we will be out of that money. The remainder we have to live on is my social security disability pay. It does not cover all the bills, not to mention gas and food. Praying for a speedy resolution to the car settlement and that we can find a usable car for a couple of thousand and then sock away the other couple of thousand to pad the living expenses payout. We can always address the car situation at a later date. I don't need anything fancy or new...just something dependable and economic. This truck is killing us in gas. Praying also for a settlement from the insurance company from the woman who rear-ended me in January. That probably won't be a lot of money, but it will be some. I'll take whatever I can get.
That all said...things are really going slow and are okay for today. Nobody is dying here. We have a fully (almost) stocked pantry and freezer to eat from that should keep me from having to buy almost any groceries. We will clear that freezer out and clean up the pantry. I will get much more inventive and creative with food, to use up what all is in there. After all this, I will be restocking my pantry, but for now, we will eat what we have. (We have a lot. We are not going to starve anyway. lol)
ON a better note...the garden is in, things are germinating and growing like crazy. All of the seed that I personally saved have had a germination rate of almost 100% !!! Things are moving along nicely out there. I took a stroll through the gardens this morning around 5:30...it was peaceful and it was beautiful. As you can guess by this, we still aren't getting a whole lot of sleep around here. I worry about the Irishman, he's not good with this kind of sleep when he's healthy, never mind when he's traumatized and healing. I know he's worried too, but trying to keep a good face on it all. That helps a lot.
Lots of our friends have stepped up and offered assistance with everything from housecleaning to yard mowing. Many prayers and well wishes are making this all a little easier too.
This coming Thursday will be our 22nd anniversary. That same day I will celebrate 24 years clean and sober. We are together, we are okay and we can get through this I know. Like he said yesterday...we've been poor before. We can do this. lol
I'll try to do better about staying in touch on here, but I'm just so darned tired all the time it's easy to pass. Having to carry both ends of this thing when I'm still hurt too isn't easy, but I'm managing. I just seem to need a lot more rest. lol And of course, I wake up every time he wakes up (about every 2 hours). So, nobody around here is getting much sleep. lol
Thanks all of you for your well wishes and prayers...they are greatly appreciated.