So, it's mostly over. Gifts exchanged, food eaten, messes cleaned up. It was a bit of a thin gift giving around here this year, but that's okay. We had a friend over on Christmas Eve for supper, and then today we ate leftovers, and easy food, and watched movies. We did NOT watch A Christmas Story or The Grinch or It's A Wonderful Life. (We have those movies, and we usually watch them, but not today. lol) I'm not sure where the day went, but now it's late and everyone except me is sleeping.
And I'm a little melancholy...thinking about things that I can't change or do anything about. I feel like a silly old woman. I didn't hear from a one of my siblings today. I didn't call them either. So, as much my fault as theirs I guess. They all have kids and grandkids and all that goes with that, and a couple of them have big extended families as well. I didn't want to barge in on any of that. So, instead I'll just sit here and feel sorry for myself. lol And I've really had a pretty good day. I'm tired and sore from all the cooking I did yesterday. But the food was good and I didn't kill myself cleaning or anything ! lol I made a pretty rustic meal and my guest thought it was rather gourmet. So that is always a good thing.
It is such a stressful time of year for so many people. Not for me so much...because I just don't get all up in it like some people do. A friend of mine's mother died last night. That will probably color her holidays forever. Anothers child got really sick today and she was frantic. Yet another had to race her mother to the hos[pital Christmas morning with a stroke. I have a habit of getting a little sad at Christmas...a habit born of all the years I didn't have my son when he was small. When I was still drinking, I would just stay drunk until it was all over. Once I sobered up, everything changed. I finally got him back when he was almost 16, but by then the habit was ingrained in me. Call it regrets, fears, cell memory... even now it affects me. It's not horrible or debilitating. It's just a sadness that washes over me, usually mild. It wasn't even happening this year until tonight, when everyone was asleep and everything was done. Probably because I'm tired.
At any rate...tomorrow will come soon enough. I have to take the insulated bibs back that I bought for the Irishman and exchange them for the next size up. They're just a tad too snug. They go over the top of his work clothes. Hopefully they will have some still...and have the size I need. My son was thrilled with the granola bars I made for him and put in a Xmas tin. We also gave him a couple of pairs of heavy boot socks, some house slippers, a dvd and a book of wild mushrooms in Illinois. I "owe" him a batch of granola too. I just didn't get that made. The Irishman got a pair of slippers, the bibs, a dvd (Where The Wild Things Are) and a new nice leather wallet. I got some perfume, 2 dvds (Contagion and Water For Elephants), a sweater from my inlaws and a sweater from my husband. Oh, and a cooks scraper...I don't know what to call it...the straight edge metal scraper that you can chop with or cut dough. I've wanted one, but just never got it for myself. I always can make do with something else. lol We had a nice breakfast of ham and eggs and I made a batch of cranberry/blueberry/almond muffins. It was a nice morning. And it was all downhill from there. I roasted a small turkey breast and put the small piece of ham in the oven too. Around 2:30 , I sliced that stuff up, put out some cheese and crackers and small slices of leftover multigrain baguette from the night before, got out the platter of pickled stuff from last night too, and we feasted while watching a movie. Just pretty much grazed the rest of the day. lol I offered to reheat some french onion soup from last night, but nobody was interested.
All in all...a good Christmas.
Hope your was the same.
(I didn't get this finished last night after all...lol. But here it is)