I don't know what it is. I'm feeling like somebody pulled the plug on me, but I won't quite die.
I'm not sick. I'm not particularly depressed. I'm just....unplugged.
It's been a goofy few days around here. The Irishman is sick-ish with stuffed up head and cough, but still going. The dogs and cats are coping with the change in seasons as best they can, since it it going up and down like a roller coaster...one day 58 and then 77 the next. Rainy today. Supposed to be 82 on Wednesday, and then back down to the 60's again. I tell ya--it makes my head spin.
It's a lazy Sunday morning. Himself is gone to a District to-do this afternoon and I stayed home because, well..because I could. lol I cooked a chuck roast with baby red potatoes and celery and carrots and onions in one of those Reynolds cooking bags, so it's all tender and awesome. I'll take some in to MissB for her Sunday dinner and maybe she'll eat it and maybe she won't. Her taste buds are failing her, and everything she puts in her mouth either has sugar in it, or they "don't make it the way they used to". She even thinks the mashed potatoes are full of sugar. lol And the french fries from McDonalds (which, of course, may very well be).
I've been reading a little and writing not at all and basically being like a lump of skin these past few days. Not sure what it is...I don't know. I need to get in the shower now, because it's about an hour and a half away from time to leave. Time just flies by...and I can't keep track of anything.
On a brighter note, I just subscribed to the page of one of my all time favorite singer/songwriter/ idols and spent some time reading and even emailed her, just to tell her that I still love her as much as I did the first time heard her, back in the late 60's/early 70's. Janis Ian will always have a place in my heart. She's a remarkable talent and a wonderful human being and that's all I'm gonna say. I might try to insert a link in here later...
My son is having a time of finding gainful employment and is really worried. I still just want to kiss and make it better...I do what I can in the short term to help him out, but in the end it's going to be their responsibility to adapt to the changing world...I hate seeing him this down, and he told me he's not sleeping well. He's stepping out on a limb today and talking to his dad about moving into his grandmothers house...I don't know how that will go, but I don't think it will go well. His father is a hard man, just like his father was. A reduction in his house payment would make a big difference in the situation, and he doesn't expect to live there for free....but we'll see. He was talking about being homeless and I told him "You know that's not going to happen.". I'm praying that something will shift for him soon and he can find a regular job that pays halfway decent. He's really killing himself looking and filling out apps and there's just nothing available. He's been going down and sitting in the labor hall everyday for 2 hours hoping to get picked for a job, but he said that last week somebody laid off like 50 workers, and they're all down there every morning now too. Very worst case scenario, they come here and move in with us and we share the house till they can get back on their feet. It would be crowded, but we could make it work. He just laughed at that, but I will not have him living out of his car. This is what family does. And he and his wife are doing what everyone else is doing...cutting corners and changing their lifestyles. And hoping, hoping, hoping....that something will break soon.
Okay. I have to go shower. And I have to portion up some food to take. And be thankful for all the little things in my life today. That I am still online and I am still able to garden and my husband is still working. That I can share what I have and that I have the skills and abilities to make things work, even when it gets a little scary sometimes.
Heard Bill Clinton on Face the Nation this morning saying some really practical things, and it did my heart good. I hope lots of other people heard him too.
And I know this is...what>? But I have to share it, because it slayed me.
Have a grand Sunday, all y'all....