...and here we stand, on yet another precipice, leaning into the upcoming year. Thinking about the year past. Thinking about the year on board. What will we do differently ? Better ? More ? How will will we face the uncertainties that life and the world throw at us ? How will we manage to keep our families intact and our finances in check and our heads from exploding ? How will we keep the animals fed and the gardens planted and the table laid ? And how can we possibly sleep at night with all this jibbir-jabbar running through our minds like a downhill freight train ?
If my only doomsday prophesy is that we don't sleep well, then I guess it will all be okay. lol I don't sleep that well anyway, and neither do most of the middle aged women I know. I can think of a lot of things I need to do differently. But I can also see a lot of changes I have already made, which makes it all seem less daunting. I have high hopes for 2013. For all of us. I am sensing and sometimes seeing a subtle shift in human nature, we are becoming more compassionate, more realistic, and more gentle. With ourselves and with others. And it makes my heart smile.
It's a frigid, but sunny morning here on the Prairie. The sun is glaring brilliantly against the white snow and blue sky. It's blinding, really. And my car hasn't been moved in several days and is frozen completely..windows, doors, big icicles hanging down from the wheel wells and bottom of the doors. They look like crystal spears. Everything looks gorgeous out there. I am going to try to get out there today...certainly by tonight when I'm attending a speaker meeting and potluck. I may just wait til then..I wanted to stop by the store and pick up some lobster tails for our New Years Eve supper. We never go out on NYE. We always stay at home and have a feast and then sometimes even stay up til midnight. The Irishman has to work Monday, but is off Tuesday. So, it will be good and we will be home safe and warm. Just the way I like it.
Thinking about making a coconut pie today. I'll just take pumpkin bread to the potluck. They're making chili and I don't know what is an "apprpriate side dish" to go with that. lol Unless I make some cornbread. Or bring hotdogs and buns. Hey--that's a thought. Chilidogs, piled high with chopped onions. That sounds good...I'm not a big hot dog eater, but every now and then, a Nathans sure sounds good. hmmm....
I've been up since about 7, which means that I got about 6 hours of sleep again. I feel drowsy now, after having a bowl of oats for breakfast. I loaded it with raisins and walnuts and cinnamon. The Irishman is gone to his home group, of course and I am not even dressed yet. Thinking about a nap, actually, and it's only a little after 10. lol
I finished the first book of the Hunger Games Trilogy. A quick, good read. Saw the movie first this time, and the movie actually did a good job of following the book. Yay! I'll start the second book--Catching Fire--in a bit. Suzanne Collins wrote these three books in three years. I am flabbergasted by that ! I guess when books want to be written, they get written. BOOM! Last night we watched The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel again. God,I love that movie...how can you go wrong with Judi Dench and Bill Nighy and Maggie Smith and Tom Wilkinson and the rest of the wonderful cast? And the story is so dear to my heart...I want to read the book. I had it on my list at one time and now I can't remember the name of the author or the book itself. It was not called TBEMH...oh right--It was called These Foolish Things, by Deborah Moggach. Which was then republished a little differently, with the screenwriting changes I'm assuming, and marketed under TBEMH. At any rate, I want to read the original. So there. lol
Alrighty then. I think I shall wander into the bedroom. One of two things will happen : I will either lie down for a nap, or get my clothes on. Either way, I win. lol
Have a peaceful Sunday, my friends. The doggies are snoozing, the cats are lazing about and the new age music (Moodscapes) is playing and lulling me into a serene and comfortable place. This station sounds like massage room music. That probably why I like it so much. lol
Carry on, and enjoy your day !
Namaste.
Maybe not. lol
So....the big holiday is finally over. Still New Year's to come, but we don't really celebrate that in a big way...just the two of us, home together. We had a lovely Christmas Eve dinner, with my son, nephew and a friend. I had some gifts for everyone, nothing big, but thoughtful...we ate like kings, naturally. I bought a big local ham that is the finest ham I have ever eaten in my life. I only buy it for special occasions, as it's a bit pricey (and -face it- ham isn't the healthiest thing in the world anyway...), but it was wonderful. And we've already had 4 meals out of it and there's a third of it in the freezer, whole. So, all in all...if you have to splurge on something, it might as well be that. :) After our big meal--baked ham with pineapple and cloves, like my granny used to make it, sweet potatoes (the final batch from 2011) with brown sugar, butter, cinnamon and pecans, mashed potatoes with country gravy, and a big pot of home grown green beans with bacon and onions and garlic. Oh, and home made rolls. It was crazy good. Oh..and a custard pie. Which, if I do say so myself, was magnificent.
My nephew stayed here until this morning early, when he hitched a ride with my son on his way to work and went home. (He lives about an hour south of us). So, now the house is all quiet and the pups are looking for everyone and finding only me. lol
I love that boy. He is my middle brothers middle son. He is smart and compassionate and loving and funny. And if he wasn't almost 30 years old, I'd adopt him. lol
Our Christmas morning was good. The Irishman got me a couple of books I wanted . JK Rowling's first book for adults after the Harry Potter series was finished, The Casual Vacancy. The Hunger Games Trilogy. A beautiful scarf, a set of Egyptian cotton bath towels. The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel dvd. And Sandor Katz book-Wild Fermentation. Actually, he didn't realize he had gotten me the last 2 until we opened gifts. lol I always try to help him out like that. (That's just the kind of wife I am).
I made a big Christmas morning breakfast of scrambled eggs with ham and home made biscuits and gravy. And a fresh pot of coffee. The guys ate like there was no tomorrow. It was a late breakfast, becasue I had no plans to do a lot of cooking on Christmas Day. I had made a spinach dip the night before our big supper, and we didn't even open it. So for Christmas night, I had crackers and chips and dip and sliced cheeses and ham and summer sausage and pickled bits of everything--onions, okra, green beans...and we simply noshed the night away. We feasted on pumpkin bread and chex mix and nuts and candies. It was heavenly.
And now, after eating like this for 3 days, I am queasy. lol Not too bad--I did manage to control myself. Mostly. Last night I made a scalloped potato dish with ham and onions in it and it was SO good. I don't make scalloped potatoes hardly ever, and I don't know why. We ate it with leftover green beans and finished off the last bit of sweet potatoes as well. And topped it off with pie. Well, the boys did, anyway. I was too full.
My son may have found a place to move to...he'll know in the next few days I guess. It's perfect, on 18 acres and a beautiful little house . Of course I am hating it/loving it for him. I know he can't stay here with his old mum forever...but it's sure been nice having him here. And I will hate to see him go. It's about 40 minutes from here. Far enough away that we'll probably go back to me not seeing him very often. I guess this is what happens...but his time here has sure been a nice respite from that for this old mom.
Alright. I am going to ease back into my routine, maybe vacuum a little. Don't really have any plans to do anything today, but you never know what the day might bring. I haven't been out of the house for 4 days. We didn't get a lick of all the snow that fell across the midwest, and there doesn't seem to be any in the immediate forecast. My brother in the southern part of the state, on the other hand got about a foot and a half. Perfectly okay with me, except I know we need the water. And it's bone chilling cold. I was out to do the chickens this morning, and I'm betting it's not a hair above 20. But at least the wind stopped blowing. It was atrocious there for a couple of days, 50 mph and better.
Hope everyone had a good Christmas, however you celebrate it. Hope you all reenter the normal atmosphere with as little difficulty as possible. lol
Namaste.
And today I am puttering about and considering a nap. It's a little after 2. I was up way too late last night and out of bed a little too early. I have managed to accomplish a few things so far today, and of course there are always so many more, lol, especially the day before a holiday. Right now, I have bread dough raising for rolls for tomorrow night's supper. I am going to make a custard pie and an Impossible Coconut Custard pie, because I have quite a few eggs on hand (and I can). lol. I have laundry ready to come out and be folded and another load done and ready to go in the dryer. One more load after that, of the Irishman's particularly dirty work clothes. I have cleaned up the kitchen a little, scrubbed the Irishman's lunch box (a job I have been meaning to do for a week--I swear, it looks like it belongs to a coal miner!!), cleaned the chicken coop, burned some paper trash and fiddled around a bit. Nothing too strenuous.
The boy is off to his grandmother's house for a Christmas dinner. His half brother will be there with his children, and the boy bought presents for them all, even after the mother said don't because they didn't have much money for Christmas this year. The boy said--well, I do, so all the more reason I should buy them! And then he also got some $$ cards for the brother and sister-in-law. I know they will surely appreciate it, and am proud to have such a generous son.
The Irishman is out and about today as well. First, his home group meeting and then to meet up with a friend for a short hike. Then (hopefully) he will remember to stop and get the gift for the boy, some shells for his new shotgun. And finally, by my sisters house to pick up the stove she is giving us because she got a new one. I have been wanting to set up a summer kitchen and this will be perfect. The range is electric, which I don't care for in my day to day cooking, but it will be easy to use wherever we decide to set it up for canning, etc.
So, I am home, reveling in the quiet. Tomorrow my nephew will come and join us for a few days and we will have baked ham and sweet potatoes and platters of crackers and dips and pickled veggies of all sorts and bread and pie and green beans and fresh baked 12 grain rolls, and all the hoo hah that goes along with a holiday meal. And we'll eat until we're sick and then later, we'll start all over again. We'll exchange gifts too. I got both the boys some really nice lined leather gloves, the books and dvds that I ordered through Amazon came the other day and are now all wrapped and ready for the Irishman's Christmas. I was going to make him a fleece blanket with Green Bay Packers on one side and gold fleece on the other...but the store I went to looking to get it had closed out their fabric department. I am not going shopping again until after the holidays. Maybe he'll get it for his birthday. lol
Last night we attended a lovely winter solstice celebtration at the La Vista Ecological Institute. One we attend almost every year. It was delightful, as usual. Driving past the area Walmart on the way home, the parking lot was as full at 10 PM as it was at 6 when we went by the first time. Yowsa.
We have not gone over the top this year. We have had a calm and peaceful time leading up to these holidays and I hope it stays that way.
Think I'll go take a nappie poo. Everyone--take it easy and don't forget to BREATHE......
Namaste.
Celebrating the return of the sun...
But not celebrating with friends here on Honeysuckle Hill... got knocked on our keisters yesterday by our first winter storm. It was crazy...looked like blizzard out there, because the winds were at 50 mph. It actually ony snowed about an inch, but it came fast and hard and now all the country roads are iced over and packed down and although not completely inaccessible, I am afraid our city dwelling friends would not be able to navigate out here. Country road, no street lights, no salt...life in the country. Designed to keep the riff-raff out. lol
Soooo...we have cancelled/postponed the big party until another time. Maybe Valentines Day. When the "weather" came rushing at us yesterday, I stopped in my tracks. I didn't make any soup, I didn't bake any more bread. I finished the cleaning I was doing and as the electricity kept going in and out, I knew there was a very good chance that this would happen. And I started to relax. lol
The Irishman called after work and asked if I absolutely HAD to have him stop at the market for a couple of things I had listed for him last night, and I said no, just come home safe. Well, on the way home in the storm, he slid off the road and a guy stopped and picked him up and brought him all the way home. So, this morning we had to slowly pick our way up the road and go see about his truck. We called the tow truck and before they could get there (a 4 hour wait) a couple of guys with 4 wheel drive came by, procured a tow strap and pulled him out. So he called and cancelled the truck. Thank God, he wasn't hurt, the truck wasn't hurt, and I made it back down our icy road with out sliding off the road. All the roads in town, of course, are clear.
So, everyone has been contacted and the party is cancelled, and I don't know what to do next, because my list is MOOT. :) Not really. I took the bread dough out of the fridge and made balls and set it out to raise. Rise. (You know, get bigger). I am going to finish a couple of little things I started yesterday, like taking furniture polish to the dining room table legs and the chairs. I MIGHT make a batch of granola bars. Or I might not. lol I'm kind of on vacation. I did make the bed, do the breakfast and lunch dishes and vacuum the furnace filter. And in a little while here, I'm going to sit on the couch with my feet up and a warm fleece blanket pulled around me, and watch The Young and the Restless. Bahahahahahaha....the Irishman is out right now, taking a load of stuff to the recycling center and stoppibng on his way home to pick up my Christmas ham. I may not have to leave this house for a week. lol
Today is cold (30) but sunny. Once the sun goes down, it will drop to 21 degrees and all the melting slush will freeze again, hard as a rock. Slick as snot. haha Starting tomorrow, temps are warmng up again into the mid forties for 2 days and then back into the 30's for Christmas. Who knows? We might get snow for Christmas and we might not. I don't care either way. I'm sure there'll be plenty more chances.
Alrighty then...I'd better get in the kitchen and check on those 2 loaves of bread. Thinking I might have a cup of nice hot tea and a biscotti to go with it while I watch Y&R. It's an exciting life I lead, I'll tell ya, lol
Namaste.
Just a little reminder to myself about the important stuff.
It's one of those days. I was up pretty early, as hard as it was to get out of that mahogany sleigh bed with the king sized quilt. A chilly 35 degrees this morning...68 in here, of course. But still...an easy day to just snuggle in and burrow under the covers. But--I got up and came in and warmed up some coffee and sat in front of the computer. (That was my first mistake). lol
An hour and a half later, after saying good morning to 4000 people I've never met (and a few that I have) I got up again and went out to let the girls out. I gathered 2 beautiful brown eggs (thank you, girls!) and looked around thinking-what a yucky mess. So, I pocketed the eggs and got my little rake and my big wheelbarrow and cleaned the chicken coop. These short days mean that they spend a LOT more time inside the coop, as they always go in at dark. And if it's really cold, I leave them in later in the mornings. All that means is more fertilizer for me to clean up and put in the compost bin. It's not a big job, maybe takes me 25 minutes if I'm really diligent about scraping and raking. (And I am-the ammonia builds up in there if you don't). So, I refilled the inside feed dish, cleaned the water bowl and refilled it. Put fresh pine shavings on the floor to help deodorize and soak up chicken pee. Then fresh straw on top of that and put the food and water dishes back in.
And now I'm back in, eating a bite so I can take some aspirin and my B Complex and Vitamin D. I simply cannot take anything on an empty stomach. If I don't take the aspirion, I'll be hobbling like a wounded soldier by noon. if I don't take the B Complex, I'll run out of gas. And I have way too much to do. I was getting a lilttle nervous last night, as I felt my throat getting scratchy and there is SO much crud going around out here. I dug the zinc lozenges out of the cabinet and took one. It feels immensely better this morning, so far, no trouble. I was talking a lot yesterday--maybe that's all it was. I hope so. I don't feel sick at all, just a little overwhelmed by all the stuff I haven't done yet for this party. But that's par for the course, right? Seems like the past 2 days, everybody and their sister wants a piece of me. My phone (which has been uncharacteristically silent lately) has been ringing off the hook. So, I haven't gotten a lot done. Today I am possibly meeting someone in Litchfield who needs to talk, so I am planning my final shopping trip to Aldi's to coincide with a meeting for coffee. In the meantime, I am waiting for word on the time from her.
So--my plan is to get some baking done this morning. I will bake pumpkin bread and get the Chex mix made, possibly, after I go to the store for almonds. I need more nuts! Haha. I have pecans and walnuts and peanuts and sliced almonds. Maybe I can just skip the almonds. I get so over the top with this stuff....sheesh. But I love cashews and whole almonds. For snacks, I am putting out the mix, popcorn--maybe carmel corn, maybe not. Have to see. It's easy enough to make. I have chips and salsa. I have crackers with cream cheese and jalapeno and sweet red pepper jelly. I have biscotti. And I will have soups and breads and more crackers. And some people are bringing Christmas cookies and maybe fudge. I have hot chocolate, herbal teas, coffee, and spiced cider for drinks. I am using all my dishes and cloth napkins, which will drive people mad (it always does) and I don't care. I need to just make sure I have plenty of soup spoons. I have plenty of bowls. And mugs (which, that reminds me, I need to get out of the storage). I have a lot of cloth napkins ...it's one of those things I pick up at yard sales and thrift stores all the time. I may get some more out and wash them., just to be sure I have plenty. This is gonna be fun.
Alrighty. One of my friends who has been unemployed for a while, has 2 job interviews today. Saying a little prayer for her. Another one recently got another job after beig unemployed for over a year. Grateful that things are looking up...grateful for my quiet and challenging little life here on Honeysuckle Hill.
I'm off to the kitchen!
Namaste.
So...okay. What do you do on a rainy chilly day, when you're having a small party at the end of the week?
For starters, you do all the mundane things you do every day...tend to the critters, straighten up the house a bit...look around and see what can't wait. (Like when you're completely out of bread AND granola.) Oops. So, first thing, I started a batch of granola, mixing up all the dry ingredients and then cooking up the granola goo that coats everything. It's oil and honey and vanilla and cinnamon and dark brown sugar (or, in this case, barley malt syrup, because I have some). Turn on the oven to toast the granola. It's a nice low heat, and will warm up the kitchen nicely for the bread dough to get started. I'm making the big batch of the artisan bread, and will keep the extra dough in the fridge to make more loaves when I need them. This will make approximately 6 one pound loaves. That's a good amount for us to have ready to bake, and will easily keep in the fridge for 2 weeks or more. I have to make a confession. I haven't baked any bread for 2 or 3 weeks or more. I got tired of doing it and went to the store. The sticker shock of paying FOUR dollars for a loaf of decent whole grain bread nearly sent me into apoplexy. So...I'm baking bread again. lol Funny thing, we don't eat nearly as much bread, it seems like, when it's store bought. Imagine that... : )
I have a list made of things to do today. I have a master list of all the things that need doing by Friday. I live by the list, lol. So, this morning I'm baking, toasting, and going to make some biscotti. I am cleaning the office and putting a new cloth on the altar in front of the window which is full of plants now. I'm watering plants and dusting all the bookshelves (4 in this room) and spiffing the place up a little with some decorations (not much) and some candles. This is my hideaway back here. My computer, my books, my Bose system, my altars, my rocking chair. I really should do a better job of taking care of it. I've been soaking the plants in the bath tub and they're ready to come out and go back where they belong. They needed a good long drink of water.
This morning I took 3 of the 8 cats away and gave them a new home on a farm. I got an email last night asking if I knew of someone who had some to get rid of and I jumped up in the air hollering and shouting--PICK ME!! PICK ME !! They would have taken 4, but I didn't have another cat carrier. I may be making another trip out there. They're very nice people, and it's a nice insulated barn that's overrun with mice. I've been having an awful time with these male cats ...peeing everywhere and marking territories at each other. Hissing and fighting. I've been ready to tear my hair out, because I just can't stand it one more minute. This email was a gift. SO..the 2 worst ones are gone and one female. They are all neutered, and still they sprayed and peed everywhere. So done with it. And I felt only a twinge of regret...guilty as charged.
Okay. Granola's out of the oven and I mixed in raisins and dried cherries. Was going to put some of our dried apples in too, but....this is enough. It smells good and tastes good and once it's cool, we'll see if it's crunchy enough. If not...well...I hate to put it back in the oven with the dried fruit in it. But I think it's okay...
Feels like a soup day. Thinking I could make a batch of turkey totellini, since I have a half a bag of it sitting on the counter. Not a big batch--just enough for supper and the Irishman's lunch tomorrow. Soup and some homemade bread. Mmmmm....
I'm a little hindered in the cleaning department because it's just yucky enough that the dogs don't want to go out. lol And they are all scared of the vacuum. I'm sure I can find plenty of things to do though....I have some relaxing music playing and it's cozy warm, and the smell of toasted granola is competing with the smell of yeasty goodness as the bread dough rises. It needs to rise at least 5 hours, until it falls on it's own. Then it's nearly ready to bake. This relaxing music may not be the best motivational thing I've got going...but it feels good to go slow today, to savor the peacefulness, to be grateful for holidays and friends and family. I'm picking someone up tonight to go to a meeting. I don't go out at night a lot...but I will tonight.
Tomorrow is promising to be sunny and about 60 degrees. I'll get a lot of outside stuff done and maybe even some more baking. I'm going to bake a coupe of batches of biscotti today...cranberry almond and regular. I LOVE that stuff, and it will be good party fare too (if it makes it that long). I'm fixing some Chex Mix on Wednesday and another batch of some kind of cookie. I haven't decided if I'm going to just bake bread for the party or order some of that grand stuff from Panera...that was my original plan. The big micha loaf will cost me in the neighborhood of 10 bucks apiece...we'll see. It's awfully good bread...lol
Okay--I've stalled long enough. Take good care of yourselves this holiday season. Peace on Earth...it's what we're all wishing for....
Namaste.
And I was a lot better off.
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I have been fighting computer connectivity issues for 3 days. At first it was just Facebook not opening without multiple tries. And sometimes shutting back down in the middle of something. VERY annoying.
Today it has been more of that, PLUS the internet connection coming and going. It's enough to make me want to throw the whole thing out the window.
On top of that, for some reason my cell phone bill...(You know--the ATT plan that is 89.00/month, which never costs less then 145.00/month) --is suddenly 200.00 this month. And I can't find out why. Haven't actually called the customer service people yet, but looked at my account online, and it's all a bunch of BS about data usage being delayed..blah, blah, blah.
And I am ready to start fresh in the new year...with NO cell phone, no computer and nothing electronic. I'll become a Luddite and live out here on Honeysuckle Hill, waiting patiently for the mailman to come and bring any communication that anyone needs to have with me.
Does anyone else ever get this frustrated with these things? Or is it just me--am I so addicted to this life that I cannot function when things go awry, as things will do? I swear--I am half serious about all this. Because we live out in the coountry, we are held hostage by a phone company whose headquarters are in NY, whose service is atrocious, and there are no options. We can't just choose another provider. So my house phone and computer access are what I have. Unless I go back to satellite again (which I won't) because every timne the wind blows the connection goes out. I tried that for 2 years with Wild Blue. ATT is the onlt cell phone service we have out here. There is a new one that might work, and I will never get a phone with a data package again. I just need something to talk on and maybe text from time to time. This smart phone is all well and good, but I don't need it. I use probably 10% of it's capabililties. It's ridiculous.
I'm just too old for all this. LOL
I want to scream and yell and throw a temper tantrum.
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Well, the weather here has been insanely warm. It hit 60 today and is supposed to do the same tomorrow. I got outside for a bit and ripped out the dead clematis (which still had some green on it AND a couple of flowers!!!!) and I got the rest of the garland put up on the porch railing. It looks very pretty. The house is coming together too. I have a couple of long lists of things to do and bake and buy before Friday. I have no doubt that I will get them all done and we will have a grand time on Friday night. The weather is supposed to stay warmer than normal, and I hope dry. It rained last night a bit this morning, so the dogs have made a mess of my (as yet) uncleaned carpet. Also, the front porch is a muddy mess, of course and the area of yard in front of the porch looks like a motocross pit. Hopefully it will dry out nicely and all be well.
Today I seasoned my cast iron skillets. That was an ordeal. And the house still smells like hot grease and cast iron, lol, and I opened all the doors and turned the ceiling fan on high. (I remember now why my mom and grandma always did this outside over the burning barrel.)
The tragedy of the shootings in the elementary school are weighing heavy on everyone. I don't watch much news coverage, so get my information in bits and dribbles on the computer. Tell me again why everyone is against gun control. I am rendered speechless by it all.
My son and his girlfriend are off to his company Christmas party tonight. The company throws a big bash and puts them all up in a nice hotel for the night, so that no one has to drive anywhere. They'll be back tomorrow sometime, and then he will go to his dad's family Christmas celebration. I was surprised they are doing it so early, but I guess there are so many families involved now that it's difficult to make it work for everyone. My ex had 3 children and has a young one at home and his wife has 3 as well. Fun. lol
My nephew is coming up to spend the holiday with us and my husband and son will be here. It will be a cozy day of non-stop eating, I'm sure. We're not buying much in the way of gifts...probably a little here and there. My son says he wants nothing, that he's got everything he wants. lol MY husband says he wants a vacation in Fiji. LOL I can't think of anything I want either. We are really blessed.
We went to the movies to see The Hobbit last night. In 3D. Woohoo. I had never seen a movie in 3D and now I've seen 2 in 3 weeks. lol They did a pretty good job with the movie, directed by Peter Jackson, so how bad could it be? It was a nice evening out with my honey.
Well...I should sign off and see if I can get this to post before the connection goes out again. It has gone out and come back at least 4 times since I started writing.
Happy Saturday night, y'all. I'm going to make it an early sleep....maybe. lol
Namaste.
