Big wheel, keep on turnin'....

 Ah-la...(as Mz Moon would say).

  My aunt passed away relatively peacefully yesterday early evening. They went to get her up for supper time and she was dead.  They had started giving her doses of morphine for the pain in her back (?) and trying to keep her comfortable, and I suspect that may have been the little push she needed to let go and pass over to the next great adventure. That's what I'd like to think, anyway.

  She wanted to be cremated, so there will probably be a memorial service in the next week or so. I haven't talked to my cousin yet today.

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  It's a beautiful day here at Honeysuckle Hill. Supposed to get close to 60 today and it's sunny and the skies are blue and here I sit. lol  I do have some things done and some more things to do, but I decided to start celebrating my birthday a day early and just run it on for a couple of days. Why not?  It's probably a miracle I have lived this long. And miracles need celebrating.

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  My nephew is doing well...slight fever (expected) , and they are weaning him off the ventilator. He keeps trying to wake up, and they have apparently restrained him, because he keeps trying to pull out all his tubes.  Spoke with my sister today and she cried a bit off and on, something I don't think she allows herself to do much.  She said he has pancreas damage from all the drinking and I said yea, I wasn't surprised and that she hoped God could get through to him and make him understand he needs to change his lifestyle. She's very upset with his wife and I tried to gently remind her that she's only his mother now, and that wife trumps mother. It's an old story.  If only it were that easy...that an unfortunate accident could make drinkers stop drinking.  It rarely happens that way, but I guess sometimes it does and maybe this could be one of those times. It scares me too, the way these kids drink. Just like I'm sure it scared our parents and their parents before them. 

  I guess I keep coming back to the fact that there's just SO much more information out there now...when I was a kid, everybody thought it couldn't hurt you, and now we know better.  But I'm sure that the base troubles that lead us to wanting to get lost in the haze of alcohol are still there and still the same.

  And so it goes....

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  On a lighter note, I am going to make veggie burgers and sweet potato fries for supper.  I have a small list of things that need attending to, like my vacuum cleaner needs to go in the shop. I need to call the vet and see if we can bring another dog along to our appointment tomorrow who needs just a rabies shot. I need to call the local witch doctor and see if they are still doing ear candling...I am having an issue with itchy way down deep ears and some possible hearing loss. (OR--I'm just not paying attention.)  :)   They are right here in town.  I had it done about 4 years ago, I think, and it was a good thing.  I want to take the vacuum cleaner tomorrow and leave it over the weekend.  Which means I need to vacuum before I take it.

  One thing's for sure...I have job security.  LOL

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  I'm trying to do a better job of blogging in 2012...have you noticed?  Quantity, if not quality.   Yay, me.

  Off to cook, to clean , to call.  Have a great Thursday , all ya'all...

   May all your days be sunny and bright....

  Namaste.

New Year's Eve, 2009

Ahhhhhh... here it is...the end of the year at last. I was feeling pretty good about it until some buttwipe sent me a horoscope overview for 2010 that said this year would be full of travails and opportunities to show everyone how well I can weather hardship...not exactly the glittery new year I was hoping for, lol.


My first thought for the new year is to start the rewrite on my novel. I haven't touched it since the end of November, when NaNo was over. I think it's a good start for a read, and don't want to just let it fall by the wayside. So it's a matter of developing the discipline that I KNOW can be there (I finished, didn't I ??) and setting a routine to make it happen. Nothing overly worldly about that. Even a resolution breaker like me should be able to manage.

My second thought for the new year is to stop thinking about the New Year. LMAO...


Another 365 days of living in the moment, of staying present in my life. No matter what, no matter how. One Day At A Time has saved me over and again, and continues to be the single biggest gift of my sobriety. I have to gather up the blessings of my life and look them over on a regular basis. Especially this time of year. It's a powerful time of year for Capricorns like myself, born at the tail end of this string of holidays. As always, the pendulum can swing either way. It can be depressing or it can be joyful, and either way, it is my choice. Generally I land in the middle of it all. Some days are good and some days are less so. In the end, I make it through and land on my birthday with a sigh...grateful to have made it through another year and to be beginning yet another adventure. So here we are, leaving 2009 and entering 2010, and with a blue moon to top it off. That is grand. A blue moon, as most of you know, is when we have 2 full moons in a month. I stood out in the backyard last night listening to the snow and ice in the trees...the sky was clear and brutally cold, the silence was deafening. The moon was brilliant. It was amazing. In the far distance I could hear coyotes howling and yipping faintly. The chickens were snuggled in their coop, the local dogs were all snuggled in somewhere too. And it was beautifully quiet, with the sounds of cracking branches and snow falling through the tree limbs every now and then. I stayed and listened until I couldn't take it anymore and then came back in and made a cup of tea. I was in bed before midnight for a change.


The blessings I would send along on this last day of the year are hopes for abundance and prosperity for us all, however we happen to define those things, Blessings of peace in our homes and our hearts, and blessings of love and hope in the coming new year.


And so it is.





Namaste.