Fridays Finish

Here we are...the 31st day of July. Tomorrow starts another month...

Went to a meeting tonight and the topic was acceptance. Heard some good things and some interesting things...but this drunk was in good company. About 15 of us stayed sober one more day.

Had an interesting Reikki encounter this evening. A friend that I didn't even know practiced this offered to help with a whole body healing for me, and so I went to her house and we meditated a bit and then she put her hot hands on and around me. I have had Reikki before, and I felt the rearrangement of energy just like I have in the past. I wish she wasn't leaving town next week....when she comes home, I would definitely do this again. It felt very healing on a lot of levels.

It's late and I'm tired. I wanted to take a moment to look over my day and be grateful for everything in my life. I haven't had to drink, or become homicidal, of suicidal. I haven't had to live under a bridge. I haven't had to leave my husband, or scream at my kids, or move in the middle of the night.

On the other hand, I did have a plumber here today to get ready for hooking up the water!!!!! I did get to go to a meeting. I did get to spend some quality time with people that I really care about today. I did get to "practice these principals in all my affairs." I did get to help someone else, so I don't feel all useless and shit. Someone called today, just to see how I was doing. I go0t to work in my garden, nurturing and caring for plants and vegetables and fruits and flowers.


Life is a banquet....Rosalind Russell once said....and most of you suckers are starving! Reach out today and grab as much of your life as you can hold. Love the people around you with all you've got. And don't forget to be good to yourself.

"You are a child of God...So ACT like it!"


Namaste.

Whining Wednesdays

This is a print by C. Don Ensor called Mothers Mandolin... I picked up a pair of his prints at a sale one time...

It's been a long good day. I stayed close to home til about 7:30 PM when I hightailed it out to a meeting. Really glad I went. Several newcomers and a good topic. Even if I was late, lol.

I tried to call the doctor all day today. No luck. Turns out that whole section of town had a massive power outage...no phones, no computers, no electricity. (Lack of power was our dilemma...) I called the specialist that I was supposedly being referred to, and they said they have not been called by the office. I got so angry I threw my phone across the room. I don't often have fits of rage like that these days...but I lost it. It was a week ago that I was in that office and she sent me for the xrays. It doesn't help that I'm hurting so much. I think tomorrow I will call another doctor on my own and see what happens. The receptionist at the specialists office said I can't make my own appointment with them-the doctor has to call. Unbelievable.

I did a tiny of bit of housekeeping, a tiny bit of garden work, and watched a movie and took a nap. I need to be in bed now, because I have to take Pat to work so I can go get the young Prince tomorrow morning. He's staying through Friday...we haven't seen him for a couple of weeks.

I've had more anger than usual these past couple of days. There are extenuating circumstances, but I always have to keep my fingers on the pulse of my emotions. Anger takes me places I don't want to go. I sat in the garden for awhile this afternoon after my little conniption fit. It helped calm me down and gave me pause to look at the positive side of things in my life. Birds singing, flowers blooming, garden growing like crazy.I'd like to get this knee fixed before canning time is here. Once that starts I will be on my feet for hours at a time...it's hard enough on my broken body without the added mess of a swollen knee. Sigh...

..."and acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation-some fact of my life-unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in Gods world by mistake. .." (Alcoholics Anonymous, pg 417)

And once again, I take a deep breath and step back. Tomorrow is another day and today I didn't have to take a drink...no matter what. Odds are good that I won't have to tomorrow either, if I can remember a few simple ideas and trust my Creator to take me through the day.


Namaste.